Friday, July 30, 2004

"To me, it sounds as though the point Da Vinci was trying to make somewhat
parallels a point C.S. Lewis makes in his book, Mere Christiantity. This
'everything in balance' does make sense. One illustration Lewis uses is that you can
understand sleep and why it is important when you're awake, but not while
you're sleeping. Or perhaps a more appropriate example is something that i am
often susceptable to: when you stay up late many nights cramming for that
important math exam that carries significant weight on your GPA, you do not see any of
the mistakes ('careless errors' so to speak) that you may make in solving a
problem, no matter how many times you check over it. then when the exam is
returned, now that you have had some time to relax, catch up on sleep and not
worry about the exam, you notice those careless errors that you shouldn't have
made, like adding when you clearly should have multiplied. schools schedule
prolonged breaks throughout the year as a chance for students to relax and get
refreshed. but when we are done with school, we have to learn to control the
balance ourselves. there is no set schedule for your fall or spring break. and
chances are (there are exceptions) there won't be a 2-3 month summer break. umm
that's all i have to say and i don't want to end it so abruptly but i'm not sure
how. so i guess 'the end' will have to do."

first i love your name, how elegant. but... please send me more on the subject of c.s. lewis and balance, i am very interested on what he has to say!

Thursday, July 29, 2004

tao of stephen/ leonardo da vinci

I have always tried to live and enlighten others to my theory of "living in balance", which states; everything that is of the utmost importance, and morally upheld in ones life must be used, utilized, revealed to others, and obtained, in balance.  i am open to arguments and discussions disproving my theory of balance, but thus far have run into little obsticles when one considers the Christian crusades, terrorism in the name of religion, drug abuse, the workaholic's child, alcholoism, etc.

while reading on the life of leonardo da vinci (1452-1519) i discovered he to believed in a theory of balance. Here was a well known painter who thought of a flying machine 400 years before the airplane first took off. He was a sculptor, architect, musician, engineer, scientist, and mathematician. with quite a resume' one would consider him to be an overachieving workaholic, but contrary to belief Leonardo said...

"Every now and then go away
have a little relaxation,
for when you come back
to your work
your judgement will be surer;
since to remain constantly at work
will cause you lose power of judement...

Go some distance away
because the work appears smaller
and more of it
can be taken in at a glance,
and a lack of harmony
or proportion
is more readily seen.
Leonardo da Vinci


Wednesday, July 28, 2004

having writ

The Moving Finger writes; and, having writ,
Moves on: nor all thy Piety nor Wit
Shall lure it back to cancel half a Line,
Nor all thy Tears wash out a Word of it.
Omar Khayy'am


Saturday, July 24, 2004


i was reminded of the book "the alchemist" today when it talked about the "whole world conspiring together when you concede to follow your dream". my friend max and christine sent me a gift, which included a book called 'wisdom of the ages' by wayne dyer. here we are on modesty talking about solitude and serenity and the first chapter of my new book is entitled "meditation" and starts out with these two amazing quotes;

Learn to be silent,
Let your
quiet mind
listen and absorb.
(580 BC- 500 BC)

and my favorite...

'All man's miseries derive from not being able to sit quietly in a room alone.'
- Blaise Pascal

On this topic of silence and solitude Mr. Dyer adds this...
"It has been estimated that the average person has sixty thousand separate thoughts each and every day. The problem with this is that we have the same sixty thousand thoughts today that we had yesterday, and we'll repeat them again tomorrow. our minds are filled with the same chatter day in and day out. learning to be quiet and meditate involves figuring out a way to enter the spaces between your thoughts... in this silent empty space between your thoughts you can find a sense of total peace in a realm that is ordinarily unknowable."

atheist at first sip

"The first sip from the cup of natural science makes one an atheist, but at thebottom of the cup, God awaits."
- Werner Heisenberg, nuclear physicist

thanks Lianne for the quote

thoughts for jess on big city solitude

how fortunate you are to live in a city where "losing yourself in the crowd" is an option.  the smaller the city, the more elusive our precious solitude becomes.  in mine, because of the size and the job which i hold, to step outside is to be instantly recognized and instantly hailed.  here lie a few suggestions -- "tips and tricks," if you will --  pulled from the experiences of a jealous hunter of loneness and seclusion:for coffee shops -- the most obvious haunts for those seeking solitude:  choose the darkest, loneliest corner.  don't make eye contact with other loners.  rotate.  avoid becoming a "regular."  if the baristas begin pulling your shots before you are fully through the door, gather your belongings and move onward.less obvious:  the Industrial Part of Town.  most cities have them, and once the steel workers and cannery operators have called it a day, it is yours for the taking.cemeteries:  not for everyone, obviously, but if walking amongst tombstones doesn't bother you, take advantage of the quiet.  the dead will seldom try to interrupt your thoughts with pointless smalltalk.tops of buildings:  amazingly peaceful if you can access them.tops of parking structures:  often disliked and avoided, especially by the package-laden, and thus ideal.parks after dark:  tricky.  sometimes patrolled by cops if there are After Hours rules.  sometimes home to questionable characters.  newer often means of luck to you.  never stop searching.  for you and i, fellow loner, Silence and Solitude is Sanity.

well here is someone that obviously knows more about solitude than I, and my favorite part is "silence and solitude is sanity." thanks em for your thoughts.

Friday, July 23, 2004

I'm trying to write something in reply to "Please do research if you believe or don't believe in evolution and write me and tell me why/why not." buthey, that's no piece of cake *shock* I don't believe in evolution, at least not in evolution as the origin of life. But why..? Well of course I have my arguments but i don't want to get a story like "cos the Bible tells me so - now I have to invent a nice theory that 6000 years makes fit in the I-don't-know-how-many million years of evolution" it is not like that. I know what I believe but it's hard to write it Darwin another language and in a short message. I'm trying, I'm trying. It's underconstruction, like 90% of all the things I'm doing."

please do not use the bible as a reference point on evolution simply because a debate between you and an evolutionists would end quickly in defeat because a macro-evolutionists would most likely NOT believe in the bible, therefore leaving your argument invalid in their eyes. When debating science it is best to use science. Religion with religion. Continue the search. Never settle for ignorance. seek and you will...

is solitude in downtown NYC possible?

"Dear Stephen,
You are absolutely right about the fact that silence and solitude can do a lot of
good. But I find it extremely hard to find that in this day and age. Where I live,
there is nowhere to go to get away from the noise or the phone calls. So what's a
person to do?

Anyways, my question to you is: What do you suggest us busy city kids do?"
-jessi mo

well first i would suggest what is probably the obvious which is to get away, plan a trip to camp a couple hours away, Buddha wondered out of his castle and wondered about the kingdom and eventually out of the city to seek enlightenment, Jesus spent 40 days in the desert and many times He is said to wonder "into the wilderness". So if you can, leave. Get in your car fill up the tank and pick a direction. go. or bus, or train, or hitchhike, etc.
but more realistically i totally understand that sometimes those things are impossible but honestly one time i found solitude on the strip in Los Angeles, though it sounds amazingly odd, sometimes the wilderness can be nothing more than a concrete jungle. here is how
1. get alone- go to the other starbucks where no one is going to know you, or across town where the chances of running into an equations is nearly impossible.
2. turn it off- turn off your cell phone, your 2 way, your pager, your palm pilot, your sideshows, your handheld internet, etc. the coffee machine is the only acceptable piece of metal allowed.
3. make time- you have to set a time where there is no prior commitments, and make it a solid block of time (like 3 hours) so that way you concentrate on the reason your there and spend the other 2 thinking about what you could be doing instead. block off the time from work, "emergency's", and commitments, which are simply distractions
4. bring your own paper- in big cities you cant simply wonder around talking to yourself like you could all alone in the woods... well you could, but you might be misunderstood. bring a notebook or start a journal, put the thoughts down on paper. this helps because later on in life you can see what battles and problems you faced and how you overcame them.  also sometimes thoughts flow better when your writing them out, some things you can get out with words maybe pen might do. i have found this is also helpful because if something pops into my head that i need to do i simply write it down instead of letting it antagonize my thoughts and time the rest of the night.
5. plan a trip- even though all the above steps may help there is something about nature that draws us closer to the infinite. something inside opens, and our mind naturally wonders and has no need for modern technological entertainment when stars and galaxies unexplored are in eyesight. plan to get out of town, make an effort to get away, get all your friends together to go camping, with the intent that at one point in the day you all agree to spend time alone.
6. ask someone else. i am not the expert on solitude just yet... i am learning along side you so if you or anyone else has suggestions please email me, and i will post them for everyone to learn from




Thursday, July 22, 2004

solitude + silence = serenity

previously i believe i quoted a saying that said
"solitude is the furnace of transformation", but i have learned through the course of this week that i believe that it is not only solitude, but silence.
try going one hour with no phone, no computer, no music, no talking, no internet, just you and serenity. i don't think many of you will try it because a lot of us are afraid of the outcome... your afraid of what you might hear in the still,   yourself.
others will start, they will get away into the woods, and then 10 minutes into it their mind will begin to wander and think of 110 other things they should be doing, and 10 minutes after that return home to reply to that email or return that "urgent call". but if you succeed in going an entire hour of silence, not saying one word, in solitude, i think you will find one thing easier to discover...yourself.

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Evolution continued

"To Joseph. (meh... Don't post it if you think it's worthless ;) questionnaires mark
words I wasn't sure about)

I've searched too - I have found only parts of the entire answer so I'm still
searching. But a book which helped me much was a book from Peter school. Not saying
that I completely agree with it, but it is at least very interesting. He tries to
prove that the creation is not an evolution, but the opposite: it's a degeneration.
In Eden it was perfect and since then it went worse and worse, that would explain
things like Aids and Sears: new faults in the human DNA. (peters opinion about
mirco-evolution is that it's not evolution but just variety(?)) To me it was a
complete new idea. It has been translated in English and here's where you can find
the first chapter(?): click on
'the book' (it's a horrible site but... you'd just read the text"

Thanks L for writing,
i think evolution is such an amazing topic because people take it as such fact immediately just because their 9th grade science teacher told them it was true. Please do research if you believe or don't believe in evolution and write me at and tell me why/why not.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

letter from a skeptic

"dear stephen,
first thanks for your honesty about not knowing all the answers. I respect the fact that you admit your imperfect, I think we all are and for 'leery' to judge you is sad because it sounds like she was more or less condemning and not encouraging. But whatever. Anyway, to be honest I struggle now with the fact that evolution seems so reasonable, I look at darwins "tree of life" and feel it gives a plausible explanation of how we got here. I understand that you don't have all the answers, but please help, im drowning in doubt."
-joseph "the skeptic"

dearest joseph,
I think you speak for alot of us, when you say that you have become a skeptic because of what you have seen in your high school text books. But here is where I stand. I am a micro-evolutionist-intelligent design-"big bang"* theorist. Macro-evolution is the theory that all things evolve slowly "by accumulating slight, successive, favorable variations' and that 'no sudden modifications are possible." and that right there is the nail in the coffin to darwins theory. Darwin himself knew that there were sudden "explosions" of phyla (or divisions of animals) appear in fossil record. Darwin says that macro evolution happens slowly over time, so my question is what about the Cambrian explosion??? here is the explanation:

"The Cambrian was a geological period that we think began a little more than 540 million years ago. The Cambrian explosion has been called the "biological big bang" because it gave rise to the sudden appearance of most of the major animal phyla that are still alive today as well as some that are now extinct"
Dr. Jonathan Wells

in other words the theory that we evolved slowly over time is not proven true because there are breaks in history where suddenly there appears new animal types, and species. This could be explained by creationism but NOT Darwinism. I encourage you to do your own research on the Cambrian (and other) explosions which basically debunk Darwinism. get back to me on what you discover.

*as originally theororized