The Modesty Writers Guild

A Confused Identity "Pen names, a stage name, an alias, all conceal the identitiy of what is real. Hidden behind another name, preconceived notions and misconceptions are laid aside. Finally, freedom is obtained to be anything because nothing is expected. One becomes new, untainted by the past. For the past has faded away and only freshness remains. Samuel Langhorne Clemons is my hero for he understands my position. I like the brilliancy of writing to write rather than writing to be someone or something in someone's mind. For when one reads and knows not the person behind the words, it is only the words that are heard. And words want to speak without being judged. But eventually the pseudonym becomes someone and a warped reality prevails leaving the truth behind. Is it Samuel Langhorne Clemons or is it Mark Twain? And if he is Mark Twain, then who am I? Goodbye Modesty Blogspot" ~Katrina Marie Blank touche, it is not the writer but the writing...

' "why not go back to paris and find her?" "it couldn't work out. . ." why stephen, correct me if i'm wrong, but i do believe an intellectual decision has been made and with that decision i welcome you to the choice cult.' ~ marie touche marie, i have been outwitted yet once again -stephen

Frank Zappa once said: " It's better to have something to remember than nothing to regret..." *thanks ames for the quote(s)

" "its funny how i still look for qualities of her in other people, but the person she is now is confusing, and i was in love with who she was; not who she is. i would be chasing a pipe dream, a fairy tale which includes a time machine. " I have found that I do the same thing. Its hard to not compare someone to another that you liked so much. You just love every quality about that person who you "fell in love with" that you want someone to be the same so you still have the person you lost. "I personally call it lust at first sight since I think hormones play a bigger part than an instantaneous connection." I believe that is true. I don't really believe there is love at first sight. In my opinion I believe when you get to know someone you start to love them. So basically you are judging "the book by its cover" if you say it was love at first sight. Which many people deny they do but if you say it was love at ...

"Imagine Imagine there's no heaven, It's easy if you try, No hell below us, Above us only sky, Imagine all the people living for today... Imagine there's no countries, It isn't hard to do, Nothing to kill or die for, No religion too, Imagine all the people living life in peace... Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can, No need for greed or hunger, A brotherhood of man, Imagine all the people Sharing all the world... You may say Im a dreamer, but Im not the only one, I hope some day you'll join us, And the world will live as one. " written by: John Lennon I think this is the communist manifesto put down into a song! *a brilliant song at that. i have been trying to learn this song, and one day it hit me. all the verses in the song have to do with either: brotherhood of man/no possessions/sharing all the world= the theory of no private property/ everyone working for common good with no one person greater. no religio...

"Very Cool Post from "k-****"!! I recognize "fear of ending up alone" you know, sometimes its so hard to trust God 100% and give your life over in His hands. Having no control about it, asking God to lead it. I really want to do that, this post did encourage me very much to trust God even more than I did, thank you k-**** " -lianne

"why not go back to paris and find her?" -marie it couldn't work out, she is not who she used to be at the days of the Eiffel. its funny how i still look for qualities of her in other people, but the person she is now is confusing, and i was in love with who she was; not who she is. i would be chasing a pipe dream, a fairy tale which includes a time machine. i am happy now, life moves on and i learn from the past. i used to tell people that i have no regrets, and would never regret anything in my life. now i see i just needed to grow up and realize that regrets are simply failures, and failures are a necessary part of life because we learn from our mistakes. if we keep making the same mistakes and never learning then we are a failure! so i can safely say i regret some things that i have done in my past but i have learned and don't ever count the memories as failures because i have learned... and moved on. -stephen

"Love at First Sight? Love at first sight? What do you mean love at first sight? Do you mean the 6?4? model I met at a dance club while I was on Spring Break? Do you mean the guy I stayed up all night with on the cruise ship so that we could watch the sun rise? Do you mean the summer fling that was ignited by Fourth of July fireworks? Or perhaps the stranger who noticed me while I was waiting at the bus stop ? the one who came and slipped his phone number into my hand and asked me to call him if I?d like to go out for coffee sometime. Maybe it was the boy who rode my bus in 5th grade that passed me a note asking if I would go out with him. Circle Yes No or Maybe. Maybe it is the man in this story. It is well past midnight. The others are probably wondering where we are, but I am in no rush to leave. In fact, I wish this moment would never end because I know I?d be happy staying in it forever. And I know you feel the same as you sit just above and beside m...

stephen christian acoustic* w/ guests the social orlando florida january 28, 2004 5$ 18+ more info @ www.orlandosocial.com or kyle@arsonmediagroup.com nick@arsonmediagroup.com tickets at door http://www.orlandosocial.com/calendar/index.cfm?date=%7Bts%20%272004%2D01%2D28%2000%3A00%3A00%27%7D&next=0&more=0&all=0

"I just borrowed Over the Rhine's "Ohio" CD from a friend. It's easily one of my new favorite cd's of 2003. Very good emotional music with powerful lyrics. Im totally referring it to all my friends. Right now that my type of musical taste, do you have any suggestions?" -ucfb what a great cd that is. Angela Griner loaned it to me and i was instantly hooked into the lyrics. if you are looking for more along those lines please do yourself the biggest favor and go buy damian rice "O". it is an amazing cd and anyone in to the slightest bit of singer/songwriters or folk really needs to aquire this. also try dennison whitmer, josh tillman, saxon shore, anything off the label "burnt toast vinyl", damian jurardo, pedro the lion, or angela griner. these are a good place to start.

"It's been a few months since I last sent you an email, but this is the first time I've felt the need to write something. I've always looked at myself as the one least likely in the world to ever fall in love, or much less be able to share the same feeling with that someone that I had fell for. In a previous post someone said that god has timing for true love. Up until a month ago I would have to say that True love was the biggest fraud of life. Afraid of failure and rejection, I secluded myself from the people who wanted to help me the most and from a world that wanted to make me just another mindless drone. It wasn't until I opened my heart to some of the ideas of friends that I truly began to live. I never believed in that dreaded four letter word fate and I still don't fully believe in it. But I truly believe that I have true love, and that it was partly through my decisions and through an act of fate. My next point is even if you feel you h...

"Fate First, Followed By Intellectual Decision Call it fate, call it divine appointment, call it whatever you would like. But whatever you call it, somehow lifeÂ’s circumstances have led you to someone. And they will continue to lead you to many different someone's. Some will make you weak in your knees, twitterpated if you will, others you will allow to pass by going unnoticed. But when someone does catch the attention of your heart and mind, choice steps in. Will he have the nerve to pursue this woman? Or will he allow intimidation and fear of rejection stand in his way? And how will she respond? Will she run from him in fear of falling in love and having her heart broken once more? Are both parties ready to be committed to someone else? Has he fallen for whom she really is or has her outward beauty seduced him? Has she fallen for him simply because he is showing her the attention she desires? Or has she fallen in love, not with his accomplishme...

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"...It's incredibly foolish and courageous to believe that there is someone out there created for you and only you. I guess that makes me a courageous fool. I have seen people in love, in a love that is so amazingly spectacular you know it's from God. That's what I want. I believe with every breath in me that God is a hopeless romantic. All he asks is that we wait on his timing, and if we do, he'll rip our lives apart with love from every angle. A love much bigger, stronger, greater than anything we could have asked for. Granted, taking such a leap of faith is easier said than done, but I refuse to settle for a relationship built on lust which arrogantly calls itself love. God knows all of me, he knows what I long for and what makes my heart smile. He is the one who gave my heart it's yearnings and desires. How awful would it be of me to believe that he's incapable of giving me someone who is not only all I've ever dreamt of, but more. Lettin...

' "maybe he is a she. yes! and she has fallen madly in love with me and is searching the god's for a way to become mortal, and we will live out our romance in the south of france for eternity. oh how suddenly am i in love with love! i now realize i am only in love, with love." That's so right. It's too right. I think it just hit me like a ton of bricks, it took a few readings. Here are some things I've found the past few days. "For love is blind and lovers cannot see" -- William Shakespeare Things are predetermined, right? loophole. I make mental lists of what I want in life, in my career. Like a self fulfilling prophecy, also known as the Pygmalion Effect. (Pygmalion, “who unhappy with the women in his city, decided to carve a statue to be his wife, Galeata. Aphrodite granted his wish that the statue come to life." And Hawthorne’s work, “Drowne’s Wooden Image”.) it's no wonder Dali's wife is named Galeata. Art d...

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"The Golden Ratio: The Story of Phi, The World's Most Astonishing Number" by Mario Livio. thanks J* for this tittle i will have to check it out/

http://www.goldenmuseum.com/ thank you a*, this concludes my study in the ratio.

i thought she would be here by now. as if the gentlemen known as love had a time piece. i wonder if he walks the street in solitaire, also. i know he does not* for if he did he would understand the lament in my heart, and would be here, at least by now. what if he is with his lover, by a fire. she is reading to him, listening to vinyl (an orchestra i presume, or at least something of mood). he is busy. in love. or maybe he is tired. maybe i should not bother him, he has had a long day at work and we all know love is manual labor. he has clocked out working several jobs and is expected in kiev tomorrow. i'd better not disturb him. maybe he has bad vision. maybe he is near sighted and i am not the flamboyant type. well im must inquire as to an appointment for him or a more boisterous shirt for myself. maybe he is a she. yes! and she has fallen madly in love with me and is searching the god's for a way to become mortal, and we will live out our roma...

http://mathforum.org/library/drmath/view/52676.html further investigation may prove helpful. does anyone get the connection thus far? -stephen

phi vs. Phi - a Coincidence? Ancient and modern architecture reflect the 'golden ratio' (1.618 length to width) and this number is remarkably close to phi (.618...) seen in nature for leaf dispersions, etc. Is this just a coincidence? It's more than just coincidence: the golden ratio (as you define it) is phi's twin, "Phi," where Phi = (sqrt(5) + 1)/2 = 1.618... phi = (sqrt(5) - 1)/2 = 0.618... Phi = 1/phi Phi = 1 + phi The latter facts together give the definition of the golden ratio: x = 1/x + 1 This equation (equivalent to x^2 - x - 1 = 0) is satisfied by both Phi and -phi, which therefore can be called the _golden ratios_. Since they are reciprocals, either could just as well be given that name. Together, these are used in the formula for the Fibonacci sequence: F[n] = (Phi^n - (-phi)^n) / sqrt(5) *thank you amy for this research.

"stephen, perhaps there is a combination of the two: fate and choice. maybe there are some people that we're "destined" to meet, but it's up to us to choose to make the effort with. there does not always need to be polar opposites in life. sometimes, it's a little three dimensional. i like to think that i was meant to meet my girlfriend. looking back upon how we met, it's really hard to think otherwise. but then we made an effort to stick together for over a year with long distance. now, she lives just down the road from me. it's pretty amazing. choice and fate. it's a possibility." -R orlando I can see your point R, for those who believe in the Talmud they can remember the story of Isaac and Rebecca, it was fate for her to dip water for the camel and the manservant. For her to be there at the right place at the right time and be in the right blood line was more than clearly the hand of YWAH. -estaban

" 'Peace..I have escaped the thing of which you speak, and I feel as if I had escaped a mad and furious master." --Cephalus (Plato's Republic) Sadly, this is my vision of love. I realize that this sounds bitter, though that is one thing that I'm certainly not. While love is something completely welcomed, there is a definite peace that can be obtained by losing it. Loss of love is supposed to be saddening, and loss of love is just that: a loss. But it can certainly be argued that there is gain to be had in the procurement of said peace. I feel about fate that this Peace will be felt in an alternate direction; meaning that I'll not wish for any other peace than the one felt with that person which 'fate" has granted me. I am a little concerned that in all of my fickle nature that I might "choose" the wrong option (and by option, I only mean yes or no) when faced with this hypothetical being. I agree that it's a...

"The golden ratio is very cool, Debussy (my all time favorite composer) used it a lot in his music. It amazes me how such a perfect ratio can possibly exist. There is something bigger than us." -Sasha my GOD were on to something... -stephen

"That number you were writing about made me curious! and I have really no idea for interjects, nothing. I searched just for fun by Google for that number, and the only thing I found is that it's in a formula about a kind of wavelengths. seems a bit unlikely to me that you did mean that, but who'll say. *waiting to hear more about it*" -L NO L!!!! there is so much more! please keep looking (*seek and ye will...). another clue is that this number is considered the "divine proportion" -stephen

"Fate Swarms of people stream by while I drudgingly wade through the crowd. I glance from side to side wondering if he's passing me by. A few glances are returned, but with each reply I know it's not him. I wonder if he's thinking the same as me, questioning where is this person with whom my life is to be intertwined? Has destiny slipped beyond my reach? We both wish that we would fall upon each other's eyes and simply know the stranger we see, is no stranger at all. We'd halt in our tracks and in silence acknowledge the soul standing in arms length away is finally in reach of a life together. Tears creep from my eyes, for this is the moment of fate that I have been praying for. The Other Side The man of wisdom stood before me, speaking words of truth and destruction - the truth of his theology, the destruction of my hope. "I could have married many different women and still remained in God's will. There's not a ...

"there are two things that give you choice in this world, money & education." -Dr. Hanczaryk epiphany of the year thus far.

"misery expects company this explains why you have friends. the fact you exist is an outlandish fairy tale. you invent new disgusts, and any opposition to your self proclaimed truth is tyranny. when does ideal take shape? when are you satisfied, and who is this ficticious character standing in your way? are you going to live the rest of your days in the shadow of your imagination? you have exchanged blood, in a pact, with crushed expectations. you have become romantically entwined with self pity. wake up o sleeper and realize that the one who slashed your hopes is none other than the sickle in your left hand" - Bernard L Everett

1.618 how a number can be a shot of life to my faith is beyond me, but it has. i would love to write more about this but refuse to write out of ignorance, so i am on my way to the library as of now to study this further. anyone have any input please feel free to interject. other than that you will hear more on this topic soon.

"the last time I slept in a bed, you were there to. the last time I touched someone's lips, they were yours. the last time someone made me smile, you were the reason. the last time my heart beat faster, you were the cause. the last time I have wanted you here with me, is every last moment since I have left" -Salvitore Abimy'on (translated by: aaa)

"architecture is much like frozen music." -gibraldi

"The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if ...

So choice vs. Destiny I used to believe in this thing called fate, or destiny. A romantic Romeo and Juliet, and Monte and Veronica, etc. But now I feel a little jaded, maybe agnostic to the idea. But choice used to seem so unromantic, as if some mystic force was not behind the meeting of 2 beautiful individuals. But now I think choice is now the greater of the two simply for this fact: by choosing someone you are saying that out of all the people in the entire world I have decided that I want you apart of my life, for the rest of my life, and no one else. No haphazard circumstance, no chance meetings where distant planets align... Its simply two rational individuals who make a choice and an effort to remain together. and for years I have convinced myself that choice is the better of the two. But now I want to believe in fate, that there is someone out there created with me in mind and vice versa.